Yesterday I had lovely plans for a relaxed meeting-free day (the second this year). I was in my daggiest, happy clothes and was ready to huddle in with my team for some great, inspiring internal us-time. Ha … The universe had other plans, and perhaps the nightmare I had the night before about fishhooks being stuck into me before being hauled out to sea, should have acted as a premonition that a challenge lay ahead… Lesson number one: life doesn’t always go according to our best laid plans or expectations. And sometimes, from somewhere totally unexpected, and completely beyond our control, our core values and belief systems can be challenged in a way we never saw coming.
So my calm day of serenity rapidly turned into one of adrenalin-fueled, heated debate driven by passion, and desperately trying to make sense of something that in my reality was so, well … Nonsensical. On rough calculation, I seriously pissed off about 5 people but seem to have been a voice for and inspired somewhere in the realm of 100… Hopefully not bad odds.
When the battle was over, I was left a little (okay a lot) exhausted and reflective – and, ironically, with the sense of calm I had hoped the day would bring. Being a traveller and a self-inquirer, I had questions for myself. Was I acting out of ego? Did I need to prove a point? To be right? Did I act with honesty and integrity? Did I portray the facts accurately? Was I acting out the wounded child (don’t start me…
)? OR was I in fact taking an issue presented to me, and using my reaction to it as a catalyst to speak out about something that challenged my value and belief system to the core?
While I’m sure some of the former played a part I’d like to believe that the latter was primarily true. As the debate raged across Facebook and the Twitter sphere, I received literally hundreds of extraordinary messages, which appear to be testament that I was indeed acting with good intent and integrity, and, it seemed, I quickly became the spokesperson for an issue very dear to many.
Yesterday morning I had a choice. When confronted with the situation, I could have chosen to bite my tongue, accept that I don’t always need to be right, avoid the drama and step away from the keyboard. OR stand my ground, question the motive and facts of the other party, checked my integrity and gone headlong into battle.
At the risk of ruffling a few feathers and feeling emotionally drained, I believe wholeheartedly that in order to make a positive change in the world, and move us into the present, some of us have to take on the role of trail blazer. We need to challenge the status quo, stand up for communities, fight against social injustices, and we need to do it without ego or agenda, but with fire in our bellies, passion in our hearts and integrity in our minds.
Now I’m off to do a calming, yoga class and then, if you don’t mind, I’m off to fight some real issues, challenge some thinking and maybe, just maybe, make a little change in the world. xx L





